rest.

Today, we talk about rest. 

I sit here on a gloomy Saturday in Los Angeles, wrapped in a fuzzy bathrobe, covered by an electric blanket (fellow Minnesotans know), sipping champagne and listening to the rain. 

We fill our lives with all kinds of noise. The noise makes us feel like we're moving, accomplishing, succeeding, on our way. We blast music in our cars and headphones to amp us up for the jobs we have to do today. We fill our homes with news shows and reruns and podcasts to fill the empty spaces where maybe loneliness is trying to peacefully reside. We fill our eyes and minds with the constant stimulation and faux connection of social media and dating apps. Swipe left, swipe right, scroll, scroll, scroll. We answer emails and texts and calls, afraid to turn off our phones for a minute in case we miss some important opportunity or occurrence, afraid we'll be left behind. 

But today, I rest. 

It took a lot of mental arm wrestling with myself to get here. To just be. To not turn on a movie or read a book or even listen to music. To just BE. I have a to-do list a mile long, and as long as I'm reading or occupying my time, I can logically excuse myself from my to-do list today, right? 

But here's the thing: doing nothing isn't such a waste of time. 

In fact, it is essential for our well-being. Inspiration springs from an open and relaxed mind. I write the most music and choreograph most freely in my car or in the shower - when my mind is forced to be still. 

Silence gives us a chance to clear our minds, to open up those spaces to be filled with ideas and dreams and solutions. Sometimes, the chaos we willingly let into our lives creates the very roadblocks we fight so hard to overcome. Only in the silence will the answers come. 

Rest is important for another reason. In our exhaustion, our emotions suffer. Our relationships suffer. Our mental health suffers. I am at my most vulnerable to doubt and depression when I am exhausted.  I can get caught up in the rat race of life, and in running on the endless treadmill, I not only burn myself out, I find ways to tear myself down. That's when That's when the doubts and insecurities and fears nestle into the cracks of my mind.

So today, I rest. Because I am my strongest when I am rested, ready to face the obstacles of life, and the battles within. 

In resting, I recognize my value as a person, and affirm that my worth is not dependent upon my success as a creator, an artist, a partner, a daughter, or a friend.

In resting, we do not deny our goals, dreams, relationships, and futures: We honor them. 

All my love, 
Drea

Amy Dorman